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Either everything is in soft focus today or I should have brought my glasses to work. This sucks. But in good news through relentless checking of the computer I have discovered that I will have to stop by the office of the apartment building to pick up a package. Yay for packages!

Current Mood: complacent complacent

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Current Music: Night to Remember -- Does anybody know who sings this?

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Have you ever had one of those days when you feel like someone knows all yours secrets? Or that everyone knows them? Today has been like that for me. I guess it's a result of my paranoia or something, I don't know. You know in those creepy horror movies where everyone in the town is brainwashed or body-snatched or something and as our intrepid hero goes down the hallway or street everyone is turning to look at him/her because everyone there knows that this is the only person who hasn't been brainwashed/body-snatched? That's how I've felt. Like everyone knows that I'm odd or that I have secrets (which I do). I don't know I guess I just felt like I stood out a lot.

Alright, enough rambling and incoherency. I have to go get laundry so that I can look presentable at this reception for the senator tomorrow. Yay for working at one of the most popular sites in Arkansas for semi-political functions. The sooner the Clinton Presidential Center/Library opens, the better.

Current Mood: cranky cranky
Current Music: Rubbin' It In -- Chely Wright

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Wow. This is so bad. So very, very bad.

Current Mood: crushed crushed

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Alright. I should be getting ready for work but I'm updating instead. Nothing of importance to say except that I'm a bit weirded out by the fact that I'm taking my QAF DVDs to work today. Now you might ask just why I'm doing that. The reason is simple. My new boss wants to borrow them. I never thought anyone I worked with at a museum would be interested in borrowing Queer as Folk DVDs. Museum people tend to be pretty conservative. Turns out that at least in the education department they're anything but. Except Wendy who seems to be a bit. Or that impression just could have been because she was a little stressed out yesterday. Anyway...must get dressed for work. I'm gone.


Had to use a QAF icon in honor.
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I have had a headache building for the past three days. I went to bed long before I was tired just hoping to go to sleep and make it go away. I'm pretty sure the headache is starting because I'm already stressed about going home. I'm probably going to get lectured about how I spend my money, I know between me, my mom, my dad and my brother, someone is going to start yelling when we move my brother in. I just hope the yell at me. I don't want my parents yelling at each other. Of course why would they? I mean they didn't yell at each other when they were married, they didn't yell when they were getting a divorce, why should they now? So, yeah, I'll probably be the one getting yelled at. I don't know if I should be relieved or stressed. Both I'll go with both. Now...time for work.

Current Mood: stressed stressed

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Well, I start my first day of substituting today. I had a message on both my answering machine and my cell phone and the temp service got me set up. I start at Jacksonville Jr. High tomorrow morning bright and early. Excitement, no? Oh and did I mention that tomorrow is the first day of school? Yeah, it is. And they already need substitutes. Oh, well. More money for me. Joy!

Is it dorky to be excited that the new Wal-Mart opened today? Well if so then I guess I'm a big dork. I haven't been to see it yet but the biggest Wal-Mart store in the world (literally) opened about three miles down the road from me today. I'm kind of excited to go see it.

Alright, I think that's enough of an entry. I have to be up at 5:30 in the morning to be at the school on time. Good night all!

Current Mood: indescribable indescribable

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Well my first day at my new job went off well. It looks like it's going to be better than my last job though I did find out that I'm going to have to work some night events but that might actually be kind of cool. They were having one last night right after I left. It was apparently for people who had donated at least $4000 to the Art Center or some such. So they apparently have to dress fancy and everything. I go back on Wednesday and Friday. So today or Thursday I have to pick up sub applications and clean out my car. Why do I have to clean out my car you might ask? Because I have to go Saturday and help my little brother move into his college dorm. Well, I don't really have to but he did help me move a hundred million times over the last four years and I really hope he'll help me move the next time I move whenever that may be. (November at the latest.) Um, beyond that, I have nothing else to say.

Current Mood: bored bored

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Wow I had forgotten how much better it fells to rant about something in writing. I almost feel like someone actually took all my anger and threw it away as soon as I threw that little piece of paper in the trash. Now before I start bounding around like a little ball of sunshine, I think I'll go to bed. I just have to remember to reset my alarm clock because my electricity went out twice today for no apparent (to me that is) reason.

I'd better go to bed because otherwise I'm tempted to stay up all night and make icons.

Current Mood: bouncy bouncy

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I feel like crap. I didn't sleep well at all and then at 8:30 this guy called raising money for the Fraternal Order of Police and when I told him that I didn't have money to spare he kept lowering the amount and I kept telling him no and he kept telling me more amounts until I finally hung up. I feel bad but he deserved it.

In good news though, I have a new job. I'm going to be a part-time (still) tour guide at the Old State House Museum instead of the same position at the Historic Arkansas Museum. The reason for the change? They pay two dollars more an hour and I'll only have to work two weekends a months instead of three.

I'm also applying for a job with the National Park Service here in Arkansas. I don't know if I'll get it but if I do I'll be making more money starting out than my mother makes after 25 years as a teacher and I'll be working at a really great National Park. So needless to say I really want to get the job plus it looks like if I don't have a full time job by the end of my lease my only choice is going to be going back home to live at my mom's which would be the very end of my life as I know it.

Current Mood: hopeful hopeful

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I'm beginning to hate everyone I work with. Except like one or two people. All it is there is bitch and gossip, bitch and gossip. I need a break. Hopefully I'll hear from the Old State House soon and then I can move onward. The thing is the museum I'm at now, I have senority for the part time guides. I've been there the absolute longest and the people who've been there shorter times are all leaving. Or at least most of them. This job just has a huge turnover rate. Probably because we get zero respect, mediocre pay, and very little promotion potiential. I'm almost considering when my lease is up on my apartment, maybe I should go back home and work there until I find a better job. I mean it'd do me just as much good staying here.

Dead Like Me season premiere is tonight. I'm kind of excited about it. Or at least I was kind of excited about it but I'm such a sucky mood now that I'm not as excited.

Current Mood: stressed stressed
Current Music: Fancy -- Reba McIntire

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My life has been pretty blah lately. I'm still working on getting a job that pays more and perhaps has a benifits package. I got my hair cut and I've imported a high number of my books from Mom's house to mine.

So that was the Cliff Note's verision of my life recently. Beyond that I'm boring and I'm waiting not-so-patiently for a phone call. And my little brother is coming to visit next week. Watch me leap for joy...or, you know, not.

Oh, yes, and welcome to LJ, Wes.

Current Mood: giddy giddy

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My day was so weird. I had a kid try to bribed me. She offered me a whopping ten bucks to let her out onto the musuem grounds without a guide. Because my job is only worth ten bucks to me. I have to go to my mom's for a couple of days. So she can lecture me in person rather that face to face. But I'll get good food that I don't have to pay for for once. I'm going to try and look on the bright side.

Current Mood: optimistic optimistic

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Very very bad day. My car died. Had to get a new battery. *sigh* Really sucks. So I'm going to go curl with Firefly or Dead Like Me.

Current Mood: stressed stressed

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I got a new mood theme. It was made by girlfromsouth and it's from the Showtime TV show "Dead Like Me." (If you haven't seen it...do.)

For those of you not up on my current job situation, I have applications out every where (so send happy thoughts) but it seems that I'm either over-qualified or under-qualified for everything thus far. I'm breaking down and going to the Employment Security office tomorrow (the Unemployment office) so that my mom will be satisfied. Beyond that my life is pretty boring.

Now I just need Dead Like Me icons to go with my new mood theme.

Current Mood: content content

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I'm actually a very patriotic person. In fact I'm a very patrotic person. I may not support the current government but that doesn't make me unpatrotic...it just makes unidotic...or soemthing. Anyway, The Fourth of July has always been one of my favorite holidays and I've always enjoyed celebrating it, even the year I was working at the Girl Scout Camp (we had a flagging burning ceremony, which is the only acceptable way to completely retiring an American flag there is apparently a fine line between protest and reverence). Today though is one of the worst 4th of Julys I've ever had. Not only am I working a big event but I also get to go home tonight after work and...clean the house. Lucky, lucky me.

Also, it really hurts to find out that someone you thought of as a friend was telling lies about you behind your back. Just in case anyone was wondering.

Current Mood: cranky cranky

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I keep typing things here and then erasing them. I know that i want to say something but I'm not sure what it is.

I think I'm running a fever. Maybe that's why I'm being so odd.
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Have you ever sat through four hours of listening to someone talk and then at the end think, "I so didn't need to know?" I just did. I feel like I know this woman's entire life story and I never want to hear anyone talk ever again.

Current Mood: scared scared
Current Music: Yap, yap, yap

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After my mom yelled at me again for not having a job yet she and my brother had a huge fight over a car or something stupid.

I'm never coming home again.

Current Music: Whisky Lullabye -- Brad Paisley and Alison Krauss

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Wow. I have a horrible headache. It started a couple of hours ago and it quickly got so bad that when my mom and I were driving I couldn't look at the other cars because the headlights hurt me worse. I instead stared at my hand. I'm going to blame the heat/humidity.

I'm at my mom until at least tomorrow night. I may have to plead cat and go home tomorrow night instead of Sunday morning like I had planned. We'll see how I'm feeling. For now I just want to curl up and die. Until then I'm going to find something else to do to amuse myself.

Bye.

Current Mood: sore sore

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Right so I made a complete fool of myself at work today. I started crying suddenly because some of my coworkers started talking about death and for some reason I took it really badly. Now it's going to be through the museum's gossip mill in about five minutes and I'll never live it down.
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Back to work tomorrow. Then going to Mom's the day after. Running on little sleep and I've yet to hear from any jobs. I guess I'm not hirable. Great. I'll just slowly starve to death.

And since I'm nothing if not a band-wagon whore...

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You know how people try to be nice and it's so obviously fake. It's so infuriating. And I'm sorry, I realize that she used to do this but really, that doesn't give her the right to step in, second day on the job and act like we're bestest friends and that she knows more than I do about the job.

Just...STOP!

Current Mood: angry angry

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Alright, so an Update to The Great Job Search. I had an interview with the Arkansas Parks and Tourism Department for a full time job manning their Vistor Information desk. It sounds like a great job and the interview went pretty well. So everyone keep their fingers crossed. I haven't heard back from the Old State House yet and I've found out that New York is a no go because I can't get out of my apartment lease. I've also applied at the Brentano's in the local mall because they're looking for part-timers. So if I don't get a full time job I'll be working two jobs. I may see about working there on the weekends even if I do get a full time job.

I saw Stepford Wives yesterday. It was pretty good. Twist at the end and everything.

And now I've run out of things to say except...I need a few more icons...I must have the full amount allowed.

Current Mood: lazy lazy

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You know you have a dirty mind when you hear something that is obviously dirty but in your mind it becomes something even dirtier. Like triple entendre, I guess.

Yeah, anyway, so I'm at work on a beautiful Sunday afternoon. And I'm bored out of my skull. I don't know if I want tours to come through or not. Like I said so very bored but on the other hand walking...eh.

Current Mood: bored bored
Current Music: Save a Horse -- Big and Rich

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Okay, day one of having my mom here is over. I'm going insane. I spent three days before she got here cleaning like mad to try and make her happy. Thus far she has spent over six hours of the seven hours she's spent awake and in my apartment cleaning. The only way I got her to stop cleaning is that yesterday was to take her shopping.

Then we had two different fights about the fact that I'm applying for out-of-state jobs. Especially the one I applied for in New York. Her main arguement against it is that she doesn't want me going to New York because then she couldn't come and fix thing for me. Which made me so fucking mad. I mean, I have never asked her to fix anything for me, and I sure as hell don't want her to. I want to make it on my own. Or at least mostly on my own.

She's driving me batty. I mean one minute she's yelling at me to find a job, the next she's mad because I've applied to jobs that are not within a hundred miles of her. It's so fucking frustrating.
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*jumps on bandwangon* Taken from ktnb

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*collapses into exhausted heap*

Man, I am so tired today. And I got about 7 hours of sleep...okay, 6 and a half, but still, I shouldn't be this tired.

My mom and I had a little fight over the phone last night, it's not a new thing but I really wish it hadn't happened last night. She's coming tomorrow to stay a few days and I really hope this doesn't make us all awkward and snippy. I mean, yeah, I realize I'm quickly running out of money but I have this whole list of job applications out right now and I really don't want to ask my dad for money. Actually, I refuse to. I mean, he's the last person on earth I want to be beholden to.

I'm really tired of eveyone thinking I'm stupid. Or that I'm smart but seriously lacking on common sense. I mean I have a reasonable idea of what life is like. I know that the entire world isn't like Arkansas, hell, that's why I want to leave. I'm tired of everyone thinking that I'm a big joke and that I'm going to end up dead on the sidewalk after living in a cardboard box for ten years just because I don't want to live in Arkansas my entire life.


And apparently when I'm tired, I get wordy.

I'm off to lunch. Then back to the desk to sit for a few hours...joy.

Current Mood: tired tired

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Okay, I've been rereading (actually skimming) some old romance novels that I first read years ago. Over the last few days I've read bits and pieces of five different books by the same author. Now ignoring the fact that almost all romance novels have the same basic plot line (they meet, they fight, they fuck, they love), the plots to these books have the exact same plot line. It'd be like JK Rowling finishing the Harry Potter series and then deciding to write a series of books about a little kid who's a wizard and who goes to a magical school and has to defeat this really evil guy...but not even set in the same universe as the Harry Potter books. And also for a book written by a woman about a woman (and her great tragic romance) the female characters tend to be extremely stupid and/or naive. And yet they outwit the men in the books who are written as so much more intelligent than the women, not to mention save the day like 14 million times over the course of the books.

Right...that was a really long rant about something I figured out a long time ago...boring.

Work tomorrow. Work Monday. Mom visiting on Tuesday. Joy.

Lord, I hope I find out about a full time job soon.

Current Mood: sleepy sleepy

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Spending all night reading Christian movie reviews online? Guaranteed to give me a headache and piss me off. All it does is fill me with rage and anger at everyone else in my religion. I mean they believe in miracles of God and Jesus but not in magic? They find a little violence and explosions more offensive than degrading women?

ARE THESE PEOPLE KIDDING ME???

/rant

I'm going to go read some slashy fan fics. That'll show 'em!!
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