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Have Faith Where Faith is Not Called For -- Save Yourself
painttheskyblue
Okay. As some of you have noticed (and commented on) I've been very absent from here lately. I've been a) busy, b) apathetic, and c) dealing with other things. I haven't posted in my journal since the beginning on December. That's a loooooooong time ago. A lot of stuff has happened this then in my life and for a lot of reasons I don't feel like I'm exactly the same person as the person who wrote in this journal. That being said, I've decided to move on. I'm going to attempt to keep another journal but this one is basically dead. I'll try to make a post again in a couple of days to remind people just in case someone missed this little announcement.

My new journal is findingblue. If anyone wants to follow me there, that's absolutely cool. I'd love to have all my friends from painttheskyblue come with me. (Yes, I have a thing for blue.) I'm going to friend everyone who friended this journal but that doesn't mean that you necessarily have to friend me back. I mean I know that I was a pain in specific regions of the body so I understand if some people don't want to friend the new journal. No big. I'll remove anyone who hasn't friended me back in a couple of weeks.

Okay. I think I've gone over everything. Not posting in a while. (Check) Grown up lately. (Check) Moving to a new journal. (Check) Friending policy. (Check)

Current Mood: awake awake
Current Music: HIM -- Poision Girl

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painttheskyblue
Wow. I haven't posted in almost a month.

And the sad thing is that I don't have much to say. I'm finished with school children at the museum for a while, well except for the group I have tomorrow. Which means I have to spend all day today figuring out what I'm going to say to them. Oh well, no big deal. Riiiiight. I've also been working on the museum's Annual Garden Show which is in the spring.

And that's basically it for me. Now I actually have to go get ready for work. Yay!

Current Mood: sleepy sleepy

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painttheskyblue
Wow, it's not even 8:30 yet and I'm already in my pajamas but they're great pajamas that my mom bought me the other day cause she feels bad cause I gots no monies. They're blue and they're about two and a half sizes too big!

...and no one wants to hear about my pajamas. Sheesh.

Anyway, other than that I attempted to get my bills paid and things done around here today. It worked out fairly well. I had kids who were smarter than I am at the museum today. In classes with kids who're dumber than my office furniture. It's interesting what you see in South Arkansas.

Now I think I'm going to go bask in the glory of my good idea of the evening.

Current Mood: weird weird

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painttheskyblue
I keep trying to come up with something interesting to say here and I've got a great big blank. This is rather depressing. Oh, well. I guess I'll just go and get ready for work then. Bye.

Current Mood: sleepy sleepy

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painttheskyblue
Okay as this is my third attempt to post today (the other two were eaten by LJ) I'm going to keep it short and sweet. I'm still alive and nothing to horrific is happening in my life. Also I'm going to LR for Wednesday through Sunday. If you want to know anything more about me, IM me at happyjustfornow and I'll tell you whatever you want to know. Apparently LJ found my life too foul to allow me to report it.

Bleh!

Current Mood: frustrated frustrated

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painttheskyblue
Just wanted to let everyone who cares to know that I'm alive. I'm just very busy and have a very shoddy connection right now. I'll have to make a longer update either this weekend or once I get DSL hooked up hopefully on Monday.

Current Mood: tired tired

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painttheskyblue
Well, tomorrow is moving day. Yay? Only not really. You probably won't hear much from me until Saturday night or Sunday. The phone company has to disconnect my phoneline here and connect the new one today so I lose DSL sometime today. Which is very sad and upsetting. I also have to turn in my digital cable box back into my cable provider today because their office isn't open on Saturday and by Monday I'll be long gone. So tonight I won't have Internet and I won't have Cable. Thank goodness I saved up a bunch of DVDs to watch tonight cause I only have the littlest bit of packing left.

My mom called me last night to let me know that my little brother may be spending the night here tonight. One of his friends from high school had a car accident and is in the hospital up here. He wants to come and see her and since he's supposed to help with the move anyway so Mom decided that if he came to LR today that he could spend the night here with me. Oh, joy. Forget the fact I have nothing to feed the boy because I haven't gone to the store to restock my shelves in awhile. I mean all I have left is stuff to make ham and cheese sandwiches (he doesn't like ham), brownie mix, and one can of soup. The boy eats like line backer and looks like stick figure, but that's a whole other rant.

Alright, I'm finished with that topic, I have a million things to do. Must run. I'll miss you all!

Current Mood: cold cold

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painttheskyblue
I FOUND LUCIUS!!

This message was brought to you by the absolute joy of finding a long lost Harry Potter Lego toy. Sometimes good things happen when you're packing.

Current Mood: excited excited

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For tonight and tomorrowCollapse )

Well, more done today. Most of my books are packed away...which may not have been the best idea if I get through a head of time. Oh, well. Most of my computer stuff is packed away too. Except one game. I have so much stuff to do it's scary. A week has never seemed so short.

Current Mood: exhausted exhausted

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painttheskyblue
Ug. It's only been one day so far on packing and I only have my movies pack thus far and that really shouldn't count because I'll probably unpack them and repack them a hundred times over the next week. I've also washed five loads of clothes (not terribly impressive, my washer and dryer are low capacity). I do have my floor mostly cleaned up though.

Friday Mom and I went to the new place to work on getting a few things set up. We mesured for the new washer and dryer, stuff like that. Then we went to the local Wal-mart (actually it's in a nearby town) and got a few things. One of them was a dining table that was on clearance. The sad thing is that it was one of those "Some assembly necessary" types and a few of the screws were missing. Luckily my mom thinks she can get some replacements. Unfortunately there are now chair and table parts in the living room for moving day but I'm sure we'll get something figured out.

I guess I should get back to packing. I'm actually kind of having fun with it.

Current Mood: chipper chipper
Current Music: Firefly Theme Song

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painttheskyblue
For those of you keeping track...it's two and half more days of work and eleven days until the move. That's right only eleven days left. How much do I have packed? Nothing! But it's okay cause I'll have seven days that I can pack with nothing else to do. And if I'm not finished by Friday I won't have Internet that day anyway because it's either not have Internet (and landline) one day in Little Rock or not have it two days in Smackover because they can only hook it up on Friday or Monday (or any other day not on the weekend).

In other news, I recieved a letter yesterday from my senator. (Blanche Lincoln) She thanked me for the letter I had sent her concerning the proposed marriage ammendment and informed me that she had voted against it. She then went on the explain her politics on a few different subjects and some legislation that she is supporting. It was really pretty cool. I realize it was most likely a form letter but being involved in the democratic process even in that small way was really cool. Alright, that's enough of that. Much more and I'll start to sound like someone who's name I won't mention here.

Yesterday I spent all day at work educating someone who's probably older than my mom about comic books. I was really impressed because she ended up deciding to go out and buy a couple of trades at my suggestion and she's going to go rent comic book related movies. I guess all-in-all yesterday was a pretty good day.
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I think I'm getting sick. My throat has been scratchy the last couple of days especially after giving a tour. I'm always, always, tired. My apartment is even dirtier than it usually is because I have absolutely no energy to clean it. I really just want to go lay down and nap but I must go to work. Then I have to come home and clean my apartment top to bottom so that when my mom gets here on Thursday it's clean or at least close to it.

Now I must go to work. Sucks.
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painttheskyblue
Well as I was hiking down to the River Market this afternoon to get my lunch (a five block trek which is hard in dress shoes) and I realized that I'm really going to miss Little Rock. I mean I'm sure Smackover and Eldorado are going to be nice in their own ways (no traffic jams, no thirty minute drive home) but I'm going to miss all the little shops and things like that from Little Rock. Also the mall. I'm going to miss the mall because even though I didn't go often, it was there if I ever needed a book or a new top or something. Oh well. I'll sacrifice convenient shopping locations for the sake of a full-time job and health benefits.

I've given into my mother and agreed to live in the trailer. I discovered that it actually cleans up pretty nice. Now I'm buckled in to work for the next 7 days straight. I'm not looking forward to it at all but that's the way things go sometimes. I also have to start cleaning and packing and checking out how to get electricity and phone set up.
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painttheskyblue
Well, I've given up, thrown in the towel as it is. I'm giving into my mother and living in the dump of a trailer. It'll make her happy and I refuse to fight tooth and nail any more. I'd rather be excited about my new job than depressed about where I'm going to live.

I'm exhausted and I have to deal with my father all day tomorrow. Going to bed. Talk to everyone later!
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painttheskyblue
Why does one good thing in my life have to mean a hundred new bad things?

Well, fuck this shit.

Current Mood: crushed crushed

painttheskyblue
Trying to find a decent place to live in Eldorado, Arkansas...nearly impossible. I think I've got a grand total of four places for rent to look at and a couple of nice house that are for sale to see. So yeah, I get a nice four hour drive with my mom on Saturday and then house/apartment hunting with my mom, and possibly my aunt. I'm taking a book. A thick one. I know I won't be able to talk to them. My aunt is conservative with a capital C and my mom is moderate with conservative leanings and I figure both of them are voting for Bush. I know my aunt is and I have even been warned that I'm not allowed to talk politics in front of my aunt because she so hardcore that even my mom hates listening to her.

The museum is like a tomb today. We've had a grand total of 13 people in the building and normally by this time we would have had at least thirty or so. It's also raining and I'm totally drained from all the stress/adrenaline that has been pumping through my system the last couple of days. I need to run a few laps around the building or something so I can wake up. I need to be wide awake to drive to my mother's house tonight.
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I was bored at work. I stole a meme from callmecayce.Collapse )

That is all.

Current Mood: bored bored

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painttheskyblue
Well my paid account expired this morning. I'll have to renew it tonight after I finish paying all my bills. It's just too funny that besides my default icon the two icons that it picked as my two most used are my Joy icon with River from "Firefly" and my icon from American Gods which are basically two extremes of emotion. Isn't that just like me and my bipolar self?

Current Mood: chipper chipper

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painttheskyblue
Is optimism realy that bad? I mean I realize that there is a very good possibility that I won't get what I want out of things. I mean after the last three months I realize that yes, the possibility of me getting everything I want is very slim. But I don't think I should go into every situtation planning on settling. I think I should be aiming for what I want and only settle once there is nothing else I can do then I'll settle. I'd rather deal with disappointment than go in expecting the worst. Maybe that makes me unrealistic but you know, I'm 22 (in a couple of days) and I can be realistic when I'm old and have nothing better to do with my life.

This announcement was brought to you by the letters M, O and M.

Current Mood: optimistic optimistic
Current Music: That's optimistic and loving it by the way.

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Cut for much squealing with glee and jubilant cursingCollapse )

For those of you who don't wish to brave the cut tag, I got that job I interviewed for on Friday. I just ordered two large pizzas and an order of bread sticks. I'm going to pig out!

Current Mood: jubilant jubilant

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painttheskyblue
For all of you who were wondering, my job interview went really well. I just hope it went well enough that I can get the job. We'll see I guess. I'm so fed up with the people at Kelly Services over this substitute thing that I don't even want to go for them again. They've been such a pain in the butt. They actually called me on a day when I had marked as a non-work day on Friday. That just makes me so mad. I just hope that I get that job and soon. I mean I'm fed up with this stuff and I have to have a full time job.

Guess I should get off the computer and do my job. I'm so bored already.

Current Mood: bored bored

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painttheskyblue
Well, I took out my first tour at the Old State House museum today. It wasn't half bad at all. It was one lady who was really interested so it was a real breeze. Now I'm just waiting for the day to end. The woman who usually sits at the front desk is sick and left early today so I get the computer all to myself. I finally got my boss the third season of QAF today and I figure she'll have it back to me before too much longer. She's so enthusatic. She actually hopped when I handed it over this morning. I hope she sticks around for a while, she's probably the coolest supervisor I've had in a while.

Now, I'm going to see if someone can come to the desk while I go to the restroom and remove my cartiledge-ring. It's really starting to hurt for some reason.

And, crud, I just remember that account is going to expire in a couple of days. I guess I'll need to pick my three favorite icons. Or post really often so I can use my others before it expires.


Edit: Apparently a lot of people from New Orleans who are fleeing Ivan are coming into Little Rock. We've had two groups in the last hour that have told me that that was what they were doing it's kind of odd to think about people fleeing a hurricane and headed here. Especially heading coming to a museum.

Current Mood: sore sore

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I'm awake. It's almost 5 in the morning and I'm awake. I have circles and bags under my eyes and I feel like I'm never going to sleep again.

I guess there's no work for me tomorrow in the morning in an hour.

Current Mood: awake awake

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painttheskyblue
Curse you, Wes! Curse you! I am now addicted to this sound track!

Current Mood: crazy crazy
Current Music: I Wish I Could Go Back To College -- Avenue Q

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painttheskyblue
I tried going to bed three and a half hours ago. I'm soooo tired but I just can't sleep. Instead I began to read romance novels. And they got me to thinking. Which led to the following rant. I'll try to be brief.

No where near brief. Cut-Tagged Instead.Collapse )

Current Mood: satisfied satisfied

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painttheskyblue
I'm out of cokes. And too lazy to go to the store to get more. I'm even too lazy to go to the coke machine in my apartment complex to stock up. Wow. Lazy.

I'm done.

Good night all!

Current Mood: thirsty thirsty

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painttheskyblue
Right so I never did get to finsh that journal entry from the other day. So yeah, things have been going pretty good. My money problems aren't as bad as they were. I mean I paid all my bills for this month and I still have money left in the bank! Yay for happy times!

Also, and much more importantly, I got called yesterday and I have a job interview next Friday. It's for a full time museum job!!! I'm so excited. Of course on the other hand it's in a place called Smackover and it's a Natural Resources Museum instead of a History Museum, but at this point I don't care! I just want a full time job because I need the benifits (and more importantly, the money). So I need everyone's happy thoughts/good wishes/crossed fingers/prayers/whatevers that I get this job. It's a good opportunity to actually go forward in my chosen career field. (Instead of all these other jobs I've been thinking about that have nothing to do with my field but will pay the bills.)

My birthday is in 12 days. I'm very excited. Mostly because I will get money and that will help with the paying of the bills. Especially if I'm having to finance a move but I won't talk about that any more. Might jinx it. Also for my birthday my mom has given me the okay to use the credit card she sent (for emergencies) to buy a few things at Lane Bryant. I'm lazy so it may end up being from LaneBryant.com instead.

I need to buy more books to read so I have something to do at work. I'm getting really bored waiting on people who're interested in tours. I may have to use a few dollars of my birthday money on that. Also I want a necklace from the store here at the museum. I get it at cost+tax which is insanely cheap. The series of jewelry they have here at the museum is called Grandmother's Buttons and they're all made from these gorgeous antique buttons. It's very cool.

I think I've finally run out of things to say so I think I should get back to pretending to be working here at the museum.

Current Mood: crazy crazy
Current Music: The Wilderness Room Music

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painttheskyblue
Wow. Look! It's going to be a nondepressive journal entry! Go me! Yep, I had a good day (though boring) at work yesterday. It doesn't look like I'll be working today but that's alright. I'll survive it. Just got called into work guess I'll have to continue this later. Bye!
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I got another rejection letter in the mail today. This one was for a job I don't even rememer applying for. Apparently I'm unhireable. People can tell just by my application despite the fact that I am fully qualified for every fucking job I apply for it still seems that I lack something they need to hire me. This so fucking sucks. Apparently I'm destined to be working parttime for the rest of my life and living off my parents. My bills are due, my rent only got paid yesterday, I work two jobs and I'm still not making ends meet without help. If I don't find something soon, I'll be living with my mother come December with my only job being substitute teaching in my hometown. I have to find a job that's going to pay my rent and my bills and give me enough to eat off of or I'm going to be screwed not to mention sink into a pit of depression worse than the one I was in a few years ago.

Edit: And the second I hit Update Journal on this journal entry the phone rang. People wanting donations from me. I had to count my money at the grocery store earlier today to make sure that I didn't over spend. I can hardly afford to donate money to other people. I need donations myself.
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Wow, okay so. I woke up a few minutes ago and I'm little fuzzy still this morning. I can't quite wake up completely. My neck is still and I feel like I have a hangover which is very strang cause I haven't had anything alcholic in months. (What can I say? My life is sad and boring.) I'm going to sub a half day this afternoon and then I'm going to have a day off on Saturday, another half day off on Sunday and a day off on Monday. Yay for days off. I think I'm going to start some laundry and try going to sleep for another hour or so.

Current Mood: sore sore

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